I surrender

And then, Lord, if I do not reach the beginning of life
I pray you that I make a difference in the world in which I live.
For now I understand at this tender age, dear God,
that my life was doomed from the start.

And now, father, I know my duty.
For as I dwell in this pit of doomed gloom
I see no exit, father, my past lurks behind me.
I observe the face of death himself!
I cannot fear what heaven holds,
all I can fear is what I do to my physical state now.

I fail to comprehend what wrong I have done.
For,only a year ago you were my bestfriend,God.
Today, it is you who has disowned me.
It seems as though you work alongside the devil in the creation of my destiny.

I am alone

Quite frankly I am terrified of the fact that I am losing it.
Lately, my heart aches for no particular reason
I hear it pounding on my chest
as if it's begging to escape.
"Be careful what you wish for", is all I can whisper to it.

For the world is a harsh, cold place
built on disownment and heartache.
"Be careful what you wish for, my heart.
Only those who surrender are the true survivors"...

eRhini

I was shipped off to a klein dorpie called eRhini
where the sun refused to smile
how I longed for those endless beach days
with just me, my friends and I.

I was taken to a klein dorpie called eRhini
where the streets met in every corner
I thought, as I stood on one end:
"I can see every border".

I arrived at a klein dorpie called eRhini
where the churches reached the sky
there were no buses, no taxis, no robots
only donkey-carts passing by.

Now the crazy people living in Rhini
were not from Rhini themselves.
For they, like me, had been drawn to Rhini
where they now worked like Santa's elves.

I learnt the hard way to understand Rhini
but before that I had to look deep within,
because before I could accept others,
it was myself I had to take in.

I hated this klein dorpie called eRhini
for as the rain would accompany dawn
one would prepare like any other,
but the rain would stop when one reached the lawns!

I swim in the colour purple
for Rhodes is Rhini.
We live it, we breathe it
I wouldn't swop it for any genie...