Friday, September 26, 2008

a letter to my younger body

Dear Zamo,
Remember the girl you liked so much in your first-year? Ja, the third-year you occasionally hung out with from the floor above you. After spending a majority of your life dating guys, I wish someone had been there to see you through a same-sex relationship. The drama, the tears, the judgement…all of it, if only we could turn back the hands of time and just make people understand that although you were not homophobic, you did not consider yourself a homosexual. It was just her.

Confusion is a deadly serpent. Remember that claim you held so dear? Indeed, not only were you bombarded with the transition from high school to varsity, but you were confronted with feelings you didn’t know even existed; your close friend, confusion, being one of them. If there was a way to avoid the stares that you believed were piercing your back as you entered the Kaif, you know I would help you. Alas, what’s in the past shall stay there, we can only enjoy what tomorrow brings.

Of course the relationship was not built on turmoil, or else you wouldn’t have stuck around for that long, but the awkward “should-I-hold-your-hand?” moments were like a child caught playing in the dark. So the Rhodes experience got you down, but she couldn’t have come at a better time in your life. She taught you more than you could ever know. If I were there I’d advise you to stick to her. Those who do not approve are but only a jealous bunch.

Have a splashing first year…

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I am posting this comment becuase of relevance to my own letter. When reading through this letter, I have noticed in your tone that; individuals come across with big humps at varsity in which they shall step over or fall over and this is how you explore this new world becuase one is no longer in the protected environment (High school).In this letter you have managed to draw a picture that chalenges the society's programmed behaviour or norm of who should you date and for someone who is still living under those conditions where their beliefs are strong and have never been shaken before, this letter has done that becuase it shows a clear picture of how other people are different from you and to interact with them you have to understand them.

In my letter I narate a story of a first year young man, who was born and raised in the townships. One of township theories state that, "life of a man is incomplete without a woman" and that if you have a woman in your lfe you would loosen your belt and your dog will wear a silky coat becuase she will take care of you. But this was not the case for the young man instead of his belt loosining he tightened becuase Rhodes woman take care of your maoney not you and don't be a fool thinking that friday is your day with only the two of you, it's a soccer team with its special refree.
The point I think we were both trying to make was to explain or look at the other side of things and not be narrow minded and in the process managing to respect people regarless of gender, race or status and most of all informing them. Like real Journalists.